ceinwyn81 (ceinwyn81) wrote,

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Not good in public

I hate people. I am anti social. I don't like bars. I don't really like Parties. I have changed alot since I was in High school and being an idiot. I don't drink as much as I used to. I don't go to any parties like I used to (I didn't really go to many anyway back then) I like quiet and solitude. I am getting better at the social thing. I am kinda making friends. But after seeing me at a party or in a bar you can definately see how lacking I am in the social department. I feel so out of place and just all around shy. I have a hard time relating to people and generally speaking to anyone. Unless I know you, you probably won't get alot of convo out of me. I don't do it on purpose. I actually crave social outings. I just don't really know how to conduct myself. Doesn't help I feel ugly because I don't really have alot of clothes that are suitable for public wear unless I want to appear frumpy and fat. and I mean Tasteless and not flattering fat. It's apain in the ass! working on getting new clothes. Anyway, I have gone through alot of bullshit and I think that has alot to do with how I am today. I will go into it at a later day when I can sit and type it all out. :P

Anyway I have to go to work. Take care ^_^
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